Well the weekend is over, and while it came with some great times, and learning a big part of me is glad that it is over, and that I can move forward.
A friend of mine from CO that I meet through a mutual friend came out for a visit. We have been chatting over e-mail and phone for the last few months, and felt it would be good for us to meet face to face.
In the end, I know I am glad he came out and I believe he is too, but I think I learned more about myself than anything else. :)
At this point we have decided to continue chatting on a regular basis, and look forward to the possibility of me going out to visit there. We are not by any means a couple at this point. We are just getting to know one another, and I like that.
What is more important that I have discovered about myself is that I am stuck in some ruts, and leaning on some excuses in my life that are keeping me from moving forward in several aspects of my life. I need to let go, have some trust and move forward. The issues I find is some of these I have been hanging on to for as long as 6-8 years.
That is right I have issues... but who doesn't. The question is what do I plan to do about it...
Step one I am going to do some real reflection the next few weeks and see where the real root of the issues may be stemming from and start facing some fears.
Oh no worries this is has nothing to do with my relationship issues... those I have been working on already... still single... still not perfect... still okay with that. :)
Wish me luck.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
looking forward to the next few days
Cuz I am going to put my analyzing brain on the self... well as far out of reach as I can, and just enjoy this weekend.
We can talk again on Tuesday.
We can talk again on Tuesday.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
2010 Time to start again...
2010 got off to kind of a ruff start. Lots going on, some positive, alot negitive. Overall I think it is time to hit the restart button. What could be a better time then the Chinese New Year. Of course.
So my year 2010 is going to start with the year of the Tiger. Granted I am trying to make positive changes in my life now rather than wait for Monday, but generally speaking my fresh start is going to be this Monday.
My life is falling into play. I now work four jobs. Yeah for opportunity. I am settled into three of the four. Day Care, Checking, and House Cleaning. Still building confidence in pizza delivery.
Here are some of the things I am looking forward to this year:
March: I will be going through the temple for my first time.
July: Family Reunion
August: Bowron canoe trip in Canada
Then two weddings one in April, one in June.
Hopefully a few trips to Smith Rock.
Should make for a great year!
So my year 2010 is going to start with the year of the Tiger. Granted I am trying to make positive changes in my life now rather than wait for Monday, but generally speaking my fresh start is going to be this Monday.
My life is falling into play. I now work four jobs. Yeah for opportunity. I am settled into three of the four. Day Care, Checking, and House Cleaning. Still building confidence in pizza delivery.
Here are some of the things I am looking forward to this year:
March: I will be going through the temple for my first time.
July: Family Reunion
August: Bowron canoe trip in Canada
Then two weddings one in April, one in June.
Hopefully a few trips to Smith Rock.
Should make for a great year!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Blessings....
It never ceases to amaze me, the blessings I have in my life.
Family
Friends
Opportunities
Open Doors
Numbers that just match up right
I am grateful for a Lord and Savior that watches over me, and family and friends that are instruments in his hands to bless me.
Thank you
Family
Friends
Opportunities
Open Doors
Numbers that just match up right
I am grateful for a Lord and Savior that watches over me, and family and friends that are instruments in his hands to bless me.
Thank you
Sunday, December 27, 2009
A whole four years in Oregon...
As I finish my fourth year and begin my fifth I thought I would take a look back on my life in Oregon.
First I want to say how grateful I am for the many, many wonderful friends I have made in Oregon. There are way too many to list, but I feel very blessed. As was said in It’s a Wonderful Life, “No man is poor who has Friends”, so I have a wealth untold here in Oregon.
Second, I have had so many great adventures with these friends. Some of which I will list here, but sadly with age… my memory is starting to fail me. The many camping trips and hikes along the coast and in the Jefferson Wilderness Area, Mt Hood Area, Crater Lake, The Gorge. I will never forget getting lost on the mountain, nor those who came to get us the next morning.
Third, I have tried to enjoy many of Oregon’s many traditions. I will list a few. Annual Tree lighting, Peacock Lane, Fireworks over the river for the 4th, The Oregon Symphony on the water front, Voodoo Donuts, the many artworks down town.
Fourth the many life opportunities I have enjoyed experiencing. My dream job at the non-profit. The chance to be a loan officer and do sales one thing that scared me so much, and now the chance to go back to school. Season tickets to Broadway Across America.
It is fun to see how Oregon has changed me. I really do feel now that there isn’t anything I can’t accomplish, I’ve become a little bit of a “tree hugger”, and believe it or not become a little more conservative in my political beliefs.
First I want to say how grateful I am for the many, many wonderful friends I have made in Oregon. There are way too many to list, but I feel very blessed. As was said in It’s a Wonderful Life, “No man is poor who has Friends”, so I have a wealth untold here in Oregon.
Second, I have had so many great adventures with these friends. Some of which I will list here, but sadly with age… my memory is starting to fail me. The many camping trips and hikes along the coast and in the Jefferson Wilderness Area, Mt Hood Area, Crater Lake, The Gorge. I will never forget getting lost on the mountain, nor those who came to get us the next morning.
Third, I have tried to enjoy many of Oregon’s many traditions. I will list a few. Annual Tree lighting, Peacock Lane, Fireworks over the river for the 4th, The Oregon Symphony on the water front, Voodoo Donuts, the many artworks down town.
Fourth the many life opportunities I have enjoyed experiencing. My dream job at the non-profit. The chance to be a loan officer and do sales one thing that scared me so much, and now the chance to go back to school. Season tickets to Broadway Across America.
It is fun to see how Oregon has changed me. I really do feel now that there isn’t anything I can’t accomplish, I’ve become a little bit of a “tree hugger”, and believe it or not become a little more conservative in my political beliefs.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Thoughts from Isle 7...
So I have seen one of my faults amplified through my job as a checker... yes that is right. For those of you that knew I had faults and are keeping track, you can add one more to the list, and for those of you who don't know me well enough to know my faults... well here is one.
I am a judgmental person. It is true. I have known this about myself for a long time, and I keep telling myself I need to stop it, first and foremost I shouldn't judge... but two I don't know people's background and circumstances.
I find I spend about 1/3 of my time at work shaking my head because of the healthy... or more likely to cross my mind unhealthy food people purchase. Or being disappointed in how they choose to spend their money... or more importantly my tax dollars, on junk food. I spend another 1/3 of my day telling myself that it is not my place to judge, and to stop thinking that about those people who buy 2 things of ice cream and 3 things of pop, with a healthy side of potato chips or pop corn on the side just to swipe their food stamps card to purchase it. Oh it kills me... See I told you...
Any way the last 1/3 is usually spent listening to gossip, or chit chatting with customers.
I struggle so much with this one for two reasons. It hits on two things that drive me crazy in life. 1st unwise use of one's money... or tax dollar... ie.. my hard earned money, and 2nd America's obesity issue. We could do better as a nation but we don't
I would be willing to bet America would be much heathier, and much harder workers if only the basics, friut, veggies, some meat products, and bread products could be purchased with food stamps. Two reasons. People who really couldn't afford food would be forced to eat better. Second those that really wanted the junk food would have motivation to work.
And since that kind of food costs less, we would save tax dollars. Sounds like a win all the way around to me.
K, I'm ranting. I have got to find a way to stop being so dang judgemental. Any suggestions?
I am a judgmental person. It is true. I have known this about myself for a long time, and I keep telling myself I need to stop it, first and foremost I shouldn't judge... but two I don't know people's background and circumstances.
I find I spend about 1/3 of my time at work shaking my head because of the healthy... or more likely to cross my mind unhealthy food people purchase. Or being disappointed in how they choose to spend their money... or more importantly my tax dollars, on junk food. I spend another 1/3 of my day telling myself that it is not my place to judge, and to stop thinking that about those people who buy 2 things of ice cream and 3 things of pop, with a healthy side of potato chips or pop corn on the side just to swipe their food stamps card to purchase it. Oh it kills me... See I told you...
Any way the last 1/3 is usually spent listening to gossip, or chit chatting with customers.
I struggle so much with this one for two reasons. It hits on two things that drive me crazy in life. 1st unwise use of one's money... or tax dollar... ie.. my hard earned money, and 2nd America's obesity issue. We could do better as a nation but we don't
I would be willing to bet America would be much heathier, and much harder workers if only the basics, friut, veggies, some meat products, and bread products could be purchased with food stamps. Two reasons. People who really couldn't afford food would be forced to eat better. Second those that really wanted the junk food would have motivation to work.
And since that kind of food costs less, we would save tax dollars. Sounds like a win all the way around to me.
K, I'm ranting. I have got to find a way to stop being so dang judgemental. Any suggestions?
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Sometimes Music Just Says it best....
Natasha Bedingfield, Soulmate
Dido Do you have a little time
Nickelback, Gotta be Somebody
Dido White Flag
O.A.R Turn the Car Around
Kelly Clarkson, Already Gone
Dido, Here with Me
Natasha Bedingfield, Pirate Bones
Dido Do you have a little time
Nickelback, Gotta be Somebody
Dido White Flag
O.A.R Turn the Car Around
Kelly Clarkson, Already Gone
Dido, Here with Me
Natasha Bedingfield, Pirate Bones
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