You know those goals that you set over and over again, but you really never move forward? What happens when you do? I have several that I have finally gotten to, and in some cases even further along in my life but now what? Don't get me wrong I can still improve in those areas and still want to, but for some reason taking that next step has been very hard.
Is it fear of success? Fear of growing up? Fear of the responsibility that comes with both of those?
It has really been on my mind for the past few weeks, so I thought I would throw it out there see what others might think.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
arsenic isn't that bad
Study: tanning beds as deadly as arsenic
LONDON — International cancer experts have moved tanning beds and other sources of ultraviolet radiation into the top cancer risk category, deeming them as deadly as arsenic and mustard gas. For years, scientists have described tanning beds and ultraviolet radiation as "probable carcinogens."
A new analysis of about 20 studies concludes the risk of skin cancer jumps by 75 percent when people start using tanning beds before age 30. Experts also found that all types of ultraviolet radiation caused worrying mutations in mice, proof the radiation is carcinogenic. Previously, only one type of ultraviolet radiation was thought to be lethal.
The new classification means tanning beds and other sources of ultraviolet radiation are definite causes of cancer, alongside tobacco, the hepatitis B virus and chimney sweeping, among others.
The rest of the story can be found at http://www.comcast.net/articles/news-general/20090728/EU.MED.Tanning.Beds.Cancer/
Anyway... I found this funny as last week I spent some time at girls came. There the water cannot be consumed due to high levels of arsenic... don't worry it is okay if you water has up to 10 particles of arsenic. It is considered dangerous at 50. The water at camp was over 200. :)
Don't worry we didn't drink any of it, or cook any food in it, but it was considered safe enough for cleaning dishes, showering, and doing laundry...
So for any of those out there that are tanners. Take it with a grain of salt. Just because there is arsenic in the water doesn't make it deadly... or does it.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
hurry to grow up
So I was at work today, yes my new wonderful job at the deli, which I love!
Anyway...
I saw three boys between the ages of 8-13 walk by. One walked under a bag that had been hung for decoration, looking up, hoping he would bump into it, because he was that tall. Sadly it did not. He was about two inches short. So what did he do??? Hopped so it would hit his head. :)
Oh how badly we wanted to grow up when we were small, and what did our parents tell us? Enjoy being young while you can. Did we listen... did we ever listen? NO. So my thought when I saw that was oh what I wouldn't give up to be young again, and wanted to tell the boys to enjoy being young while they could. Funny how the world works.
Just thought I would share. Enjoy the moment you are in now.
Anyway...
I saw three boys between the ages of 8-13 walk by. One walked under a bag that had been hung for decoration, looking up, hoping he would bump into it, because he was that tall. Sadly it did not. He was about two inches short. So what did he do??? Hopped so it would hit his head. :)
Oh how badly we wanted to grow up when we were small, and what did our parents tell us? Enjoy being young while you can. Did we listen... did we ever listen? NO. So my thought when I saw that was oh what I wouldn't give up to be young again, and wanted to tell the boys to enjoy being young while they could. Funny how the world works.
Just thought I would share. Enjoy the moment you are in now.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Monday
Talk about learning to jump into life again. Today was day one of the new life and the new goal. For me I felt so lost. So much free time, or really I should say flexible time I didn't know what to do with myself.
Wish me luck as I talk my leap of faith.
Wish me luck as I talk my leap of faith.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
That is right... Back to the student schedule
Yes it is true. I am up at 1:30 in the AM. For those that have known me for the last three years I have been in Oregon. This is not my style at all. But hey I want to live the student life. That means the crazy schedule too...
Not really. Don't count on it. It helps a great deal that I got most of today's and tomorrow's check list done today, and can sleep in. :) It is amazing what you can accomplish when everyone else is at work.
I have loved the whole day that I haven't had a job, but I could see this get old very quickly. Looking forward to a somewhat more structured schedule next week.
Not really. Don't count on it. It helps a great deal that I got most of today's and tomorrow's check list done today, and can sleep in. :) It is amazing what you can accomplish when everyone else is at work.
I have loved the whole day that I haven't had a job, but I could see this get old very quickly. Looking forward to a somewhat more structured schedule next week.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Oh for the Love of Change
That is right. The time as come for me to start a new chapter in my life. My plan... is to go back to grad school. I am going to get a masters in education. I am not sure what is my favorite part about this change.
#1 A fresh start. I love having a new start. A clean slate. Nothing that I should have finnished last week hanging over my head. A new chance to get it right. (This is why I like Mondays.)
#2 The chance to be a student again. To have a random schedule that varries from day to day. Where I can choose to take early classes, or go with late ones, and sleep in. (Lets be honest I'll be up early regardless.) Back to being able to wear jeans every day, carrying my life in a back pack, just having the simple life back. Yes I realize I am only remembering the good parts.
#3 I am quiting my job at Wells Fargo. This actually brings me the most happiness. Don't get me wrong. For the majority of the lst three years I have loved my job. It has been a good job, good company. I am just ready for a little less stress for a while, and a different type of stress.
Like most people I do have some adversion to change, but really it is just to small change. I don't like reorganizing furniture, or changing my route to work. Major overalls for my life I love! I know I'm crazy... best if you knew it too.
Wish me luck!
#1 A fresh start. I love having a new start. A clean slate. Nothing that I should have finnished last week hanging over my head. A new chance to get it right. (This is why I like Mondays.)
#2 The chance to be a student again. To have a random schedule that varries from day to day. Where I can choose to take early classes, or go with late ones, and sleep in. (Lets be honest I'll be up early regardless.) Back to being able to wear jeans every day, carrying my life in a back pack, just having the simple life back. Yes I realize I am only remembering the good parts.
#3 I am quiting my job at Wells Fargo. This actually brings me the most happiness. Don't get me wrong. For the majority of the lst three years I have loved my job. It has been a good job, good company. I am just ready for a little less stress for a while, and a different type of stress.
Like most people I do have some adversion to change, but really it is just to small change. I don't like reorganizing furniture, or changing my route to work. Major overalls for my life I love! I know I'm crazy... best if you knew it too.
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
wanting to move foward, but looking back
So I lost something last year... something very dear to me and I am trying to move on, or more forward, or what ever it is we are suppose to do.
There was something great about it. It strengthened my need and desire to want to be a better person, friend, a better me. It build my helped to build my vision of self worth, and appreciate myself for who I was each and everyday. It made me smile.
Now I am living without it. I still think I am overall a good person. I am still trying to find the desire to be better, and the determination to make it happen.
I know I will find a way, I have before, but like always the new way is never the same. I will forever be change, and grateful for the time I did have it. If I could find a way to have it back I would do anything, as I have never been so whole in my life.
But I don't know that it is possible. So onward I go into 2009. The year that so badly I would like to see myself make the improvements, and the leaps froward like 2008, but I can't seem to stop looking back and longing for all I had in 2008, because I truly had the world.
There was something great about it. It strengthened my need and desire to want to be a better person, friend, a better me. It build my helped to build my vision of self worth, and appreciate myself for who I was each and everyday. It made me smile.
Now I am living without it. I still think I am overall a good person. I am still trying to find the desire to be better, and the determination to make it happen.
I know I will find a way, I have before, but like always the new way is never the same. I will forever be change, and grateful for the time I did have it. If I could find a way to have it back I would do anything, as I have never been so whole in my life.
But I don't know that it is possible. So onward I go into 2009. The year that so badly I would like to see myself make the improvements, and the leaps froward like 2008, but I can't seem to stop looking back and longing for all I had in 2008, because I truly had the world.
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