Learned a lot this weekend

Well the weekend is over, and while it came with some great times, and learning a big part of me is glad that it is over, and that I can move forward.

A friend of mine from CO that I meet through a mutual friend came out for a visit. We have been chatting over e-mail and phone for the last few months, and felt it would be good for us to meet face to face.

In the end, I know I am glad he came out and I believe he is too, but I think I learned more about myself than anything else. :)

At this point we have decided to continue chatting on a regular basis, and look forward to the possibility of me going out to visit there. We are not by any means a couple at this point. We are just getting to know one another, and I like that.

What is more important that I have discovered about myself is that I am stuck in some ruts, and leaning on some excuses in my life that are keeping me from moving forward in several aspects of my life. I need to let go, have some trust and move forward. The issues I find is some of these I have been hanging on to for as long as 6-8 years.

That is right I have issues... but who doesn't. The question is what do I plan to do about it...

Step one I am going to do some real reflection the next few weeks and see where the real root of the issues may be stemming from and start facing some fears.

Oh no worries this is has nothing to do with my relationship issues... those I have been working on already... still single... still not perfect... still okay with that. :)

Wish me luck.

looking forward to the next few days

Cuz I am going to put my analyzing brain on the self... well as far out of reach as I can, and just enjoy this weekend.

We can talk again on Tuesday.

2010 Time to start again...

2010 got off to kind of a ruff start. Lots going on, some positive, alot negitive. Overall I think it is time to hit the restart button. What could be a better time then the Chinese New Year. Of course.

So my year 2010 is going to start with the year of the Tiger. Granted I am trying to make positive changes in my life now rather than wait for Monday, but generally speaking my fresh start is going to be this Monday.

My life is falling into play. I now work four jobs. Yeah for opportunity. I am settled into three of the four. Day Care, Checking, and House Cleaning. Still building confidence in pizza delivery.

Here are some of the things I am looking forward to this year:

March: I will be going through the temple for my first time.
July: Family Reunion
August: Bowron canoe trip in Canada

Then two weddings one in April, one in June.
Hopefully a few trips to Smith Rock.

Should make for a great year!